Anyway, I shared this to my FB but I feel it needs a longer post on it's own. It deserves it.
First off I need to say that I am an addict. To Fixer Upper. Like big time. It's disgustingly real, and I'm not ashamed to admit because I know I'm not alone in this obsession! I love Chip and Joanna Gaines so much that I want to take a road trip to Waco to visit their store, and (possibly) get a glimpse of them. Starting to sound stalker-ish? Maybe.
Anyway, I came across this video that Joanna did and it literally spoke to me. I believe in timing. Big time. Watch this video to see what I'm talking about!
She basically talks about how God spoke to her about timing, and for her to be patient, and good things will come to her but she has to put her faith there.
I loved it because it's perfect timing for me. 2016 is my leap of faith year. I've gotten more daring in my adventures this past year because I suddenly realized we have this ONE life. If you stop and truly think about it, it'll hit you too. Why waste your days living day to day to just get by? Yes I have a family and responsibilities too, so I understand that it can't always be done to an extreme degree. I still try and stay realistic, BUT I don't dismiss my dreams and goal because I know I will live a life of regret. I want to say I tried it. If it didn't work, oh well. If it did...well can you only imagine?
I smiled and got choked up watching this because I also know EXACTLY what she is talking about. The letting it go to God and walking away.
Something happened to me the year leading up to Landon. With my multiple miscarriages, every single time it happened, I thought why me? Then instantly, I got this wash over me that I kept repeating over and over... "God is still good." Maybe I had to repeat it to myself over and over to keep my sanity, who knows.
Yes I was angry, hurt, heartbreakingly sad. But I also had hope. Because I felt God telling me to be patient, that out of this something good is going to happen. I had this peace come over me after every miscarriage telling me that it will turn out ok in the end. That road led me here...
To Landon and Quinn. I always knew I would be gifted with them. In between the hurt, anger, sadness, despair, a broken heart, was hope. And God telling me just to hold out a little longer, something good was about to happen.
I talk about my miscarriages openly but not often. I'm not ashamed of them, because they changed me.
And every now and then I'll get that little tug in my heart, or that reminder like for instance, Joanna's video.
It's what started my love of blogging. I had all these emotions to get out, and it came flowing out through my fingers.
So yes I believe in perfect timing. I believe in hope.
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